My life could go in one of two very different ways right now... Hmm... how exciting...

We'll just have to wait and see what He does.

Lord don't let me make decisions based on me or what I want.. but on you and what your best is for my life.

" A Woman should learn in quietness and full submission." 1 Tim. 2:11

Quietness-

noun
1.	the property of making no sound
2.	a state of peace and quiet [syn: tranquillity

  

" In the same way their wives are to be women worthy of respect, not malicious talkers but temperate and trustworthy in everything."  1 Tim. 3:11

Temperate-Exercising moderation and self-restraint:

Hm... This quietness thing... I think that's something I need to work on. Do I bring peace? Do I bring about tranquility? I think I don't sometimes... Hm....

Just the beginning of something I think is going to take my studies for the next few days...

Thoughts?

So far this break has been much needed.

I spent all day at my dad's with my sister and step mom. It was good....

I love my father. I know there are a lot of things wrong with our relationship, but I love my father. Today was much needed.

So... I'm going to Honduras....

Crazy.

Psalms 139, I'm liking that one right about now.

Tonight as, Tim would say, I had a paradigm shift.

As we were worshipping I was thinking about all the things that had been going on in my week.  Some were stupid and waste of all the energy that I had put into them, some were overlooked and should have had more attention paid to them.  I was thinking about my job. As of right now I have one missionary on my list and he is probably going to drop. 

I just started to pray for him. As I was praying for him I started thinking about all the other interns in that room. What a blessing it is to be able to not only work along side of such amazing and dedicated people, but I have a part in how God uses them this summer or holiday.  God has entrusted me with the work of helping to mobilize them on their way to changing the world.

He has given me such a heart for the nations. But it's like Katie Luce was talking about during chapel last week.  She was saying how when they started Teen Mania they realized that they could go themselves or they could get other people to understand their heart. It's like trying to put out a huge fire. You can take your own bucket but you're not going to make much progress, but if you get 1,000 people with 1,000 buckets then you can make a huge dent in the issue. This totally goes with my heart that God gave me to mobilize missionaries to getting out on the field so that they will see the need.

I was looking out at the interns and man.... These are real people. These are the people that God has entrusted to me. It's unreal to me. They are going to go out and touch lives. I know what God has done through me and it would take me days to tell you all of it. It's overwhelming to think that he has given me the opportunity to have a part in every person reached through them. I always say..."I just want to go on every trip..."  This is how I can have a hand in every trip. It all depends on how much I pour prayer and encouragement out into these people. Oh man... Oh man... This year is going to be awesome.

God don't let me forget my sphere of influence! This is why I'm here.